“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
-Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
-Jeremiah 29:11
I’m taking mustard seed steps
To get where I ought
These steps are going to take
Much longer than I thought
But, you know baby steps
Always lead to motion
That move mountains
And are cast into ocean
Move that mountain
With just the faith of a seed
A small amount
That you couldn’t even see!
This insignificant little seed
Grows into a mighty tree
‘And birds of the air,
Will come and lodge in its branches’
And just like that tiny seed
That appears to have no power
You think you have no power
Over a mountain
But you can say to this mountain, move.
Yes, mountain, I’m talking to you!
And it will move
And nothing
Absolutely nothing
Will be impossible for you.
‘It takes courage to be hopeful.’
When darkness and shadow come creeping in
I think of you and my night begins
I close my eyes and silence comes
The strains – they fade
And tranquility hums
And then I see you
There is peace to find
You appear quite clearly, there, in my mind
You sit there by my sleepy hollow
You sit there by my bed
And in your hand you hold a rose
Of softest deepest red
And all the night long you smile
You’re there it seems for eternity
Until morning comes and calls to me
Ah, January, I see you’ve brought me some ice. Please leave it by the door. I don’t mean to be rude but when you come around, you bring me down. Your clothes are drab, your demeanour cold and your jokes for all things winter, are getting old. I know you have to visit and I don’t exactly give you a warm welcome but it’s the same on your side of the fence. There’s no love lost, is there?
Still, you do make me smile sometimes, with your tales of Christmas Past and your Very Best Wishes for the New Year. You quite respect those who brave another of your fierce tempers and make it through to warmer times. I see that, as you go, you leave me with some hope for longer days and brighter mornings and the promise of the sun on my face. So thank you January, you are kinder than I thought. Ah, I see I have another guest. Can you say hello to February on your way out?
Ah, February, I see you’ve brought me some ice…
Let’s celebrate this season
It’s springtime at last
So far, we’ve had heat waves
And cold winter blasts
A spiritual awakening
A time for hope
A moment for faith
An era for growth
While we may not have sun
That’s warm enough to burn
The cycle of life
Has finally returned
There’s a bitter side to spring
Many people get depressed
Overwhelmed by expectations
To be their very best
Spring is when many
Mental battles are fought
And not just at Christmas
As is commonly thought
For some, spring is often
When morale takes a dive
It is also when people
Take their own lives
Outside is now thriving
But inside not so
The heart may be frozen
And cold just like snow
When I was summer
I resisted spring
But now I’m in Autumn
It’s a wonderful thing
I hope that they see
Through the dark and the grey
A light shining through
To a brighter day
I pray that all
Of the shadows are chased
For those who can’t smile
When the sun strokes their face.
-Sue Young
I wrote the following verse a while ago, about ten years ago. This is how I felt at one time, but I don’t feel like this now. A wise friend said to me lately that our writing from the past is still valid, still important, simply because we felt like that at one time in our lives, so it’s still a part of us, and we shouldn’t dismiss it. (Thanks Mike. You inspired this post).
His advice got me into thinking that our past writings are like part of our photo albums. Would we cut photos out of our albums because they are no longer relevant? I’m sure some people do and have, but they are denying themselves their life story. It’s certainly a part of us we shouldn’t deny, as we need to know where we’ve been, in order to know where we’re going. We can learn from our writing from the past. What I’ve learned, is that hope is real and it does manifest. It’s very easy to feel that the future is bleak, and we may feel suicidal at times, I’ve had their number on my phone before today. www.samaritans.org 116 123 UK or Suicide Hotline.
The problem with suicide is, it’s short sighted. We can’t predict the future. However bleak things feel and how almost supernaturally impossible it is, to see past the darkness at times, the future, unbeknown to us, can hold untold wonders. Moments of this darkness will come back and try to prove us wrong I’m sure, but all in all, there’s nothing quite like looking back at bad times with a detached eye and thinking, things did get better, after all. Regardless of what unfolded, a time line of your happiness levels can be very useful.
Keep your old writings as a measure of how far you’ve come, and dip into them after several years have passed. It may trigger you to make important changes in your life. That snapshot, just like the snapshot in a family album, might finally allow you to see where you were in the past, where you are now and how far you need to go to achieve your hearts desires.
Life’s a lonely game
you shake the dice and your number comes up.
And in the aftermath of carnage
hope hides, a dream stirs, clinging to the dust
The devastation of the explosion
will only make you miss a turn
and you’ll have to go back –
five paces.
Well, you know, I don’t want to play on this board no more
Cos no one plays fair
I’m going to bed, turning in
Throwing in my hand
Too many snakes
Not enough ladders.
God waits for our reaction. He watches how we handle the adversity,
whether we handle it with love and self sacrifice,
or chose darker, destructive emotions.
Regardless of the fact that we may want to scream and shout
Regardless of the fact that we may want to break down and cry
He watches for our reaction
He hopes beyond hope that we are patient
That our patience knows no bounds
He BANKS on us, hoping we are loving and compassionate
He BETS on us, hoping we are caring, accepting and understanding.
He HEDGES that we endure our suffering with dignity and grace.
And whatever will be, will be for our good and for the good of all.
‘Like nature, like life, the storm will pass. The night will end. Spring will come.’
Forgiveness
Sometimes, we can’t stop life throwing us curve balls or dashing our hopes. Sometimes, we can’t stop the pain or the suffering, but we can control how we decide to react to all of those things. We can bring peace to our pain by letting go.
We have the power to love even when we are feeling crushed. No one can stop us blessing people or wishing them the best. No one can stop us accepting our situation and turning it into something wonderful. We can’t control what other people do, even if it impacts on our own happiness. If other people make decisions because they are hurting, we have to let them make those decisions. We have to let them go through their own life lesson, and when they come out through the other end, the only important thing, is to be there for them.